Where ever you wander, where ever you roam

be it ever so humble, there's no place like home.

But home is where I keep my stuff. I gotta get outta here. I think I took the first step. I took in renters that will be moving in tomorrow. They have the middle garage and the two rooms upstairs. I let them put stuff in the living room, I didn't have much there anyway.

They want to buy the place and we talked about land contracts but I don't think it's going like that. I need to really go - not just half get out from under...We'll have to see how it goes. We put off talking about permenant change until the first 30 days is up.

But things continue to move forward ho around here. The new grand is doing well. I'm told he's a natural entertainer - makes noises even in his sleep. The grand girl is laughing at him a lot.

The #1DIL is doing much better now. She is getting used to being a home mom and healing from her C section. The trucker #1son is keeping his wheels rolling to support them and aside from not enough time home, all is well there.

The Best Girl came over on the mate's bday and spent time helping me get stuff around for the new tenants. We cried a little but agreed that strange things happen on that day for us.

The studio experience has been invaluable for teaching me to hear all of the music, not just the vocals. MoB and Verdict Records tech, TheMan, have a way of hearing things I never even notice. But I am eminently teachable. I love listening to them find the tiny flaws in a track and discuss how best to repair them. I am still reccomending http://www.verdict-records.com to anyone in Michigan's Lansing area for recording. The guy puts his heart in each track but has the skill to make it special every time.

You can hear some of the raw studio cuts at http://www.mobluzband.com , just click the music link and hit one of the green arrows on a player to listen. "Just Wanna Know" is also known as "The song that got me into this mess". I do the back up on it. The mix isn't right yet for balance, the cuts are raw, but it is a good tune.

The nephews, B1son and Cboy2 made a trip over to help me get the upstairs empty and B1son changed out my front brake pads, too. I'm feeling spoiled. Cboy2 took the Mom on a motorcycle ride and stole all the brownie points from everyone for the winter. She loved it.

Jeanette and crew are getting things finally shook down. After getting back into the house her second son had an accident at work and just finally got the back surgury that has let him almost walk again. He is still very limpy but the pain is lessened. Big Amen there.

KMA and I are playing phone tag. I have a couple people checking me out for singing jobs and I need more hours in the day to do my web work for the four sites I am building and the way too many I am doing constant updates for.

So I'm not here much, again, but I love you all! If I wasn't out to the hot spot to do uploads I wouldn't have gotten this posted!

Later gators!

In dreams you can lose your heartache

whatever you wish for you keep...I always loved that song.

Seems like a lot of my life would be more fun if I could live it in dreams. I dreamed that I went to a new home. I walked through it, it seemed like a normal "modular", fairly new. Carpet in the living room was almost like the one I have now but in one corner it seemed to go on forever. There was furniture in part of the room but that one corner, to my left as I faced the room, and ahead of me, was empty and just kept stretching out into the distance. I wondered what was over there. I didn't go and find out. It felt "bad".

That wasn't the weird part though. What was strange was that I was there with the mate and I was not all "wow, here you are again"! It was like we hadn't missed a day together and I took him for granted like we do in real life; Like he was in my dream with me.

I got the feeling it was a place he built to make me happy and he was glad to have me there with him, hoping I would like it. I did, of course. We know each other too well to fail the "build the right nest" thing. I could do a place for him and know he would like it.

This one was empty of the personal touches that make it a particular person's home. Like he left it for me to do for us.

I woke up talking to him and myself again. It's weird. Why talk in your sleep when no one can hear you? But I do, still. It used to amuse him.

I went out the front door to look at the yard with him, but woke up, I think, just still going over what it needed if it was ours.

He was gone again. But my heart didn't hurt, like it would have before. I was just comforted that he had been there with me in a way that felt like "everyday", instead of desperate for contact. I think it means I'm healing more deeply now.

so if I get to keep the dream wish, it's that we will be okay when I get there. Not that I can't love on here and build a new bond with another, just that THAT bond is okay, no matter what.

I think I needed that. It was comforting.

No matter how your heart is bleeding, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true.

And now I'm wanting to sell the house. It's overdue. I have had several "almost" deals but the correct one hasn't come through yet. And I want a little house in the big woods. How I'm supposed to get high speed internet and a deeply rural location I don't know....it's part of my contrary nature, I guess.

But the little place I saw was good by me. I'm looking for a direction. I can go anywhere and do whatever I can find to do for income....I just need out from under my house. It's too big and too much yard for me now. I don't want to spend my time doing chores so I need less to care for.

Any of you that pray in any way please add my cousin Reb to the list. She is dealing with serious health issues. Thanks.

My step mother died last week. She was in Florida where I couldn't get to see her before she left. It's sad that we didn't get to see each other when she was up - too much on her schedule. I got to see my sis from down south though and that was fun. She went to FL and got to see our other sis there, too. I hope they had a good time.

I gotta run now, doing some email work for a friend.

Later!