It's a heart ache

is a great song. I better look it up and learn it.

The neice in law is dealing with major stress right now. Two grandparents in the hospital. The pair should be okay but they are in their 70's and major hurt. Send prayers please. Bless the whole family but especially C2Boy, her mate, for standing right there with her.

I met a young woman I couldn't give anything but words to last week. She is so shattered and tender right now from life going sour for her and I hate not being able to help when I see a need.

There is a friend of mine who's daughter died two years ago. Deep in grief, he had to deal with his wife leaving him, remarrying and taking the house they built together. He is physically unable to work and living on the wind right now. I can't help him, either. I can only listen.

I don't know why it seems so important to me to try and lift others up. ("I don't know - Wait. - yes, I do." shout out to JC...LOL!) Yes I do. Because others carried me when I was going down. I can't pay that back with money. I can only show it to the next one who needs it.

My heart aches for those I know with no jobs, illness, losing homes, hurting those they love for no good reason and those that are standing alone.

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I have begun "sucking up the green". I saw the birds flocking the other day. It's time to store the leafy tree tunnels that line the rural roads and the deep cool of the shade, the fields of corn and beans, the wooded hill with it's endless shades of green - all to get me through the days of grey and white winter.

I have enough and more to share. The house is cool and peaceful. Today is good. But I wish sometimes that the world was an easier and more loving place for all of us to be.

In the summer time when the weather is hot

I'm staying busy.

I'm free falling

I'm not dead yet. Sorry, but summer is outside time. I'm way outside....


Can't seem to stop reaching for the love I know is out there. Think I just got my heart betrayed again. Hope I'm wrong. Looks bad for the home team.

I'm just lost without someone to love with here. If I could just dry up and be a proper old widder woman I would have a lot less to think about today. I'm not. I'm alive, well and wanting -


But I've made new friends, staying busy, and got an extension on the unemployment. It's only for 13 weeks though and it makes it time to fish or cut bait on selling the house. I don't know how I'll deal without the view out the window and knowing where to walk even in the dark that comes with a new place, but, once again, Tennessee is looking better all the time.


I just can't seem to find a partner again. And I can't quit looking. It's feeling messy this time.


So I'm sorry about the lack of posts, and I'm sorry the news is same old boring stuff. For a little flash of "normal" -

I got to visit with my Eldest Girl and her partner at the big lake on Monday. It was a family run and a bunch of us went for "beach and BBQ". It was good fun. There are some great pics coming soon of the kids, when I have time to set them up for the internet.


My bike is running great and the truck is hangin in there. I have chores in town to do in the morning and then some photos to take for a friend to post on line for sale. Thursday I'm singing and I think I'll have two new songs to break out and Saturday I'm doing blues at a big party in the country, just a half hour set, but it should be fun.


Life is not all bad and it hasn't been lonely, just confusing. Not always sure which is worse. Just gotta ride this one out and see what happens next but the words, "we need to talk" are always bad to hear and worse to have backed up in your throat....


Gonna keep caring and helping where I can and moving on to find love again, til it happens. When I can, I'll be posting, still. Catch me more often on facebook - Misst Tcraneneehameham