I've been up and down and over and out

 and I know one thing, That's Life!

A friend got in touch with me last week and needed a place to stay. Of course I put her up! Things are just a little out of whack in her life and she just needs a place to be that feels safe.  She's got the upstairs. 

Last week also I was informed I'm "just a friend" again. Easy come, Easy going.  But he's got money coming in now so I guess he'll be okay. I don't know when he's leaving. You don't just toss people out for not falling in love with you -- at least not in Michigan in the winter.  He's on the couch. 

So I've got a full house and an empty heart. It's hard to explain the duality of my feelings about this relationship. I know with my head that we weren't clicking, too many differences between us. No harm, no foul. But I am sad and already lonely again.  I can't keep him but I don't want him to leave, either. 

I guess I'll just keep moving and see what comes next. Year 3 and I'm looking for a partner again. 

But I am looking. I'm not quitting on love to be a lonely old woman with a bitter heart. 

Win one, lose some....That's life!